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Saturday, September 23, 2006
Well, it has been 3 weeks since I've blogged.. Have been really busy, that's why. I have no idea why this semester passes so quickly (I'm not the only one feeling this); before I know it, the mid-sem break has just begun. What the. Especially when my life is going in all directions now and I can't seem to keep track of it, or rather, I refuse to face it.
After screwing up one test and one critique this week, I think I really need to do some reflection. School work isn't heading in the direction that I had wanted for myself. I need to catch up on my readings & ponder on what I should write for my papers. 4 more to go=( No more procrastination. Writing a paper in 2 nights did not work for me and I seriously dun like to depend on caffeine. Makes me super uptight cos I'll be physically tired but mentally awake. Hopefully, I will get to spend the whole of my mid-sem break focusing on getting work sorted out=)
Oh, talking about my critique paper, the past 2 days were the worst two days I've ever had throughout the whole of my student life in uni. I started writing my paper on Wednesday but it didn't get anywhere cos I was too tired aft 4 hours of tuition. Then come Thursday. Chengwei offered to get me coffee from Business cos she said that it was good. That was really nice of her and I really needed it to keep me awake for the boring engin lesson. I was really looking forward to trying the coffee, and what do you get when white shirt meets coffee? Yes, coffee stain! I spilled the coffee, a whole lot of it, on my white shirt! I realised that I didn't close the cap tight enough. Damn it. But well, it did kept me awake throughout the whole lesson even though I didn't had a single drop of it. Practically pissed with myself throughout the lesson. And you know what, I had a premonition that it would happen cos as soon as I agreed the coffee offer, something popped into my mind - what if I spill coffee on my white shirt? I shrugged it off and reminded myself to be careful. Well, apparently it didn't set in my head=( wtf. I swear off drinking coffee in class anymore.
That very night, after changing into a clean tee (dun ask me where I got the tee..), I had been elected into the executive committee for the psychology society (NUS Psyche). I was still unsure if that is what I want and I'm starting to have second thoughts about it. But what can I do now? Seems like there is no way I could back out without causing a strain on the few friendships I have in arts. Well, I'll just have to take things as they come along. At the most, I'll have to sacrifice other things in my life, like tuition=(
Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be a full-time student.. Like studying and taking part in activities that I'm interested in. No tuitions to worry about. No need to rush off after lessons just to start my first tuition on time so that it doesn't push back my next tuition. No need to adjust my schedule again and again. No more taking cabs so that I can reach my student's place on time. I think it will be great. But of course, that would mean that I'll have less cash to spend on. That pretty much sucks cos shopping is the only way to make me feel good amidst all the stress. Shopping therapy works for me=) No shopping=not happy. Too much time spent on tuition=not happy too. Sigh. I need to find a balance. SOON.
