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Tuesday, February 20, 2007
Ok, finally done.
Just sent out a lengthy email=(
Sigh, I just got home at 2am and I want to sleep but I've got work to do. f.
At 8.29pm, "Hey darren, sorry 2 disturb u, noe u must be busy but cud u pls chk ur email 2nite, XX sendin u budget stuff n XXU treasurer gona call u, thanx"
If he doesn't call me tonight, I will have to call him. And it has to be settled by tomorrow.
Thanks ah.
Friday, February 16, 2007
Whatever then. I care no more. Why should I let it affect me so much? I've lost hope a long time ago and I'm willing to let go any moment NOW. But, damn, I can't. So irresponsible and I have an image to upkeep.
wtf. And I just found out that someone is quitting... but that has got nothing to do with responsibility. She came to help and we could only be more grateful to her. I'm so glad for her now that the decision is made. She really deserves to stay away from all this.
Can't believe it. Some people just don't get it, don't they? It's time we have a course on raising your
EQ score - or IQ score too - so that you can make decisions on your own and not be influenced by anyone (whatever that means). Gosh, I've been
dummified and I have no motivation to study anymore.
CNY is here and I want time to come to a standstill so that I can reflect upon what I've done before I could muster whatever motivation I can grab from the air to hit the books once again.
Damn. Whatever that's going to happen, we're so screwed that I couldn't care more.
Thursday, February 15, 2007
The timing was totally perfect today. I met Kevin, my HR group mate, and he asked me if I wanted to study together. Of course! Then, since Biosemiotics class had been cancelled as Dr. Don had to go for a surgery, I went for lunch with Kevin and his other Year 1 USP friends. Initially, I was a little apprehensive - like Huh? Year 1s? If I can't connect how? All my worry was unwarranted cos I realised that I had known some of them prior to today - Ruth (whom I met at the MOE initiation), Kenneth (my project group mate for Foundations of Engineering), Irene (my logistics head for USP D&D) - and I have also made some new friends - Kevin's girlfriend (whom is a Psychology major too!), "Gee-an" (Ok, I dunno how to spell his name.. Haha.. He's in engineering, with style.. haha..), and many others...
USP is such a close knitted community, which you may never find in NUS. In fact, I know more people in USP than in my faculty, and I have known the most wonderful people in USP, especially the Beijing gang! =)
I'm so glad I had the opportunity.
Keeps me sane.
Thank you Kevin for making me realise what I have missed out in my 2 years in NUS.
I should have gone for the USC FOC to make more friends. That's it, I hope I can be OGL for this year's camp.
Maybe I should have stayed in PGP.
I should participated more in USP activities.
I should frequent the Chatterbox more often.
Wednesday, February 14, 2007
Cranky. My laptop. And myself.
My router is down. No wireless. Or maybe it's my laptop. But it's not infected with connection-terminating viruses. Everything is so freaking slow. I can't load the ibanking website too. My laptop is crashing soon, isn't it? Gosh, got to do backup but dunno how to. Damn. Should start picking up some IT skills so that I can troubleshoot on my own. But time doesn't allow.
Sigh. Let it die.
Everything is accumulating and I'm still procrastinating as usual. Sigh, when will I ever learn to stop procrastinating?
CNY is 3 days away and I have yet to go shopping for clothes. Went to Topshop briefly on sat but nothing new. Devastated. Dunno where else to go to. Even if I know, I dun have the time. Argh. Deprived of much needed retail therapy.
Emails to sent out ages ago but I haven't done so. If things don't proceed as plan, it will be my fault.
Die. Die. Die.
Readings! Term paper! 2 Mid-term tests after the break! Project outline!
I am so so screwed.
And I am happy that I am screwed.
See? cranky already.
I am so in the complaining mood these days. Doesn't sound like me.
Thursday, February 08, 2007
Rushed through my Human Relations paper till 4am this morning.
Gosh. Damn shag.
Today's Human Relations tutorial was quite fun=)
We had to throw some research ideas that we can carry out during our 2-hour tutorial session next week... People came up with ideas like investigating the likelihood of people obeying signages like wet paint when it is apparently dry, the likelihood of people picking up a wallet that has a circle drawn around it vs. a wallet without a cricle drawn around it, etc...
My idea got chosen in the end. Hee. So much for not preparing for the tutorial=p
Here's our research topic: We will get 2 males/females to hold hands/hug in the lift and we will observe people's reactions and behaviors toward homosexuals in an enclosed space.
Ha. Fun. Can't wait.
Saturday, February 03, 2007
Feeling good today cos I get to stay at home the whole day to study. Though I did not cover as much as I had planned to - too ambitious to complete 4(!) weeks of readings x 5 modules - but at least I did finish a little. So yeah! I love calculus! I love biosemiotics! I love human relations! Weird that they aren't my major modules! (Hmm...)
I know this sounds really sick but I have never felt happier to hit the books in my whole life other than today.
=)
This goes to show how dreadful the other stuff that I have been busy with are.
Friday, February 02, 2007
Ok, after consulting 2 doctors and 1 Chinese physician, I conclude that my stomach problems are most probably due to stress, especially when it all started in August last year. Frankly, all these years, whenever I am stressed, I will just get a throbbing headache and insomnia but I've managed to live with these. Stress in the subconscious form that manifest itself in physiological reactions is extremely terrifying because I am not aware and I have no control over it=(
Well, now that the professionals told me that stress is the main reason for my physiological discomfort since last year, I have to get rid of that "sub-conscious stress" - whatever that is. Less tuition=less stress. But it's not going away as yet. Now what shall I back out of?
Sigh. Screwed up my biosemiotics test today. Stayed back in school again. Eaten nothing the whole day except for a waffle - saved me from insanity & frustration.
And I thought I would have more time for myself after I had dropped the tuition in Bishan. Couldn't imagine how much worse it could have gotten if I had held on to it...
:(
I have no idea why but I have been especially tired for the whole of this week. I practically slept more than half the day - in lectures, tutorials, on the train, cab, on my study table..
Anytime, anywhere.
I really can't afford such sleepy days anymore. Lots of stuff to catch up.
Anyway, i'm just complaining for the sake of complaining... That's what a blog is for right? Ya right... Haha..
Well, after the human relations tutorial this afternoon and after reading mel's blog, I do hope that my friends can find some direction or goal in their lives. It's about time to start thinking I guess. If you haven't already know, every single thing you do, every decision you make, no matter how small or insignificant, will have a cumulative effect on your future. So, start planning. It's never too late. For starters, ponder over these questions about YOUR POSSIBLE selves.
1. What you may become?
2. What you would like to become?
3. What are you afraid of becoming?
Try to think comprehensively - covering all aspects of your life: career, family relationships, friendships, romantic relationships, personality, etc..
