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Sunday, July 23, 2006
Oh gosh, I'm getting a fever now... Just... great.
It has been a really long 21st year. Lots of ups and downs. Especially the last week. Somehow, birthday seems to take on a meaning that it should have always been - a new lease of life for a whole year.
Ending my last few days of my 21st year mostly in exhaustion and depression, and succumbing to flu on the actual day of my birthday, it isn't what I would have most desired. I'm just glad that I fell sick right after the A cappella competition. It would have been much worse if I did fall ill before the comp. It was definitely a traumatising week for me.
But it couldn't have gotten better on the first day of my 22nd year. My friends and teachers from Music Clinic celebrated my birthday. I'm just so glad that I have them to kickstart a brand new year for me. And they never fail to surprise me with the things they had made me do for my birthdays - They were the first who brought me to clubbing on my 21st birthday and making me drunk with lamborgini. They were the first to coerced me to drink ORANGE martini because they know how much I hate orange. Yeeks. Can't stand it. I still hate oranges. And they warned me that I should expect fresh oranges in future. Oh god. Oh, and I loveeeee the brown (yes, my 3rd brown jacket) Adidas Originals jacket they bought for me. They so can read my mind...
Though my mood was initially dampened by flu yesterday, they still managed to make me enjoy the whole evening, that even though I needed sleep desperately, I still went out for a midnight movie with them. Well, we watched "Nacho Libre" which was supposed to be entertaining and I suppose I wouldn't fall asleep because it's THE Jack Black movie, but I still dozed off midway thru the movie. Oh.. but it was funny, though the plot was dumb. Nevertheless, it was a great night well-spent. I really missed the people from Music Clinic. Besides my new- found USP friends, I guess they are the only group that I truly enjoy having fun with. Cos we really play and do funny things together. Somehow, I just don't get the kind of enjoyment with friends whom I'm known for years. Is it because of expectations? Is it because we are all trying to hold the group together, for whatever reason? It is because of the kind of obligation that we-should-meet-up-once-in-a-while-usually-for birthdays kinda thing? I dunno but I supposed every social circle just have their way of workings. Just like every other family. There is no right or wrong way of maintaining it but we just get by. Somehow amazingly. It's just how nature works i guess. At least I'm glad that everyone of us makes an effort to keep in contact with one another. As long as we care for each other and support one another when we need them.
Tuesday, July 18, 2006
I came across this commentary in the Straits Times today:No time, no money - no good excuse By Nicholas Sim
TOO many young Singaporeans take their parents for granted these days.
Many of us are caught up in the excitement of receiving our first pay cheques as salaried workers, and relegate our parents to the bottom of our priority list when we plan the monthly budget.
Most of us prefer to buy items that give instant gratification. Our priorities are wrong.
Many of our parents do not expect us to provide for them in the same way they provided for their parents.
What they need is a listening ear and the occasional company of their children. Often, we are too busy to provide either.
Giving pocket money to our parents is the least we can do. We should also spend some quality time with them, and help solve their problems. After all, they did the same for us when we were kids.
Sadly, many of us would rather come up with reasons to justify why we cannot spend time or money on our parents. .... Not say I want to say ah.. but really, really... reeally no time leh. Got time also must spend with friends, watch tv, msn-ing... wa, damn busy lor. Where got any more time for them? Even if we have no friends, don't watch tv, don't use internet, they will want us to spend more time studying. Some unfortunate ones even have to attend this lesson that lesson. Sigh. Kids nowadays hor, vely stressed ah. And also hor, got no money leh. Even if got money, they will ask us to keep for ourselves. We give them money, they reject; when we don't want to take their money, they also not happy. Difficult to please them leh. How, like that? Never mind la. Wait till we start working then say lor... Give tuition counted or not huh? Hee. By the time we wait till we get our first pay from our permanent job, we will be past 25 lo. They have to wait so long. All because of NS la. 2 years no joke lor. But serving the nation is a DUTY.Die die also must do.I'm serious. Reeally. Don't play play. Even when we are excused from this, excused from that (have you ever heard of someone excused from grass? or sunlight? got such people lor.. amazing sia), the army always have some "tasks" ready for EVERYONE. Then hor, some of us still got to repay loans we incurred in university leh. Got tuition fee loan. Got laptop loan. And many other small small expenses which add up to quite a big sum. When we start work, sure got more expenses one lor. Some of us may want to buy car, buy house. Where got money to spare? Wah piang aye, thinking of it gives me headache. Come to think of it, being a parent is a seriously "lugi" job, man.
Wednesday, July 12, 2006
I think i owe the world something.
If not, why would I have to be so miserable for the past 2 weeks? I have to rush from place to place almost everyday; spent close to 200 bucks (and still counting) on cab fares in 2 weeks; practically had no time in-between for proper meals - always ending up with ONE meal a day which often happens after 10pm... I'm so broke to eat anyway..; kept changing my tuition timings and apologising to my irritated students.. soon i'm gonna be fired, i think; have no time for my friends and family; have no time for myself.
It just makes things worse when people can't get their priorities right. Not that I can get my priorities right but at least I would not inconvenience anyone else but myself. Sigh. Sometimes I wonder if all these decisions that I've made are right. Why am i torturing myself like this?
I'm mentally screwed and physically exhausted. wtf.
It's times like these that make my whole life so f***ed up that I feel like relieving myself of these misery, like, you know... .... .... and all these misery will come to a halt. I'm too tired to rationalise anymore.
Wednesday, July 05, 2006
I just took my IPPT yesterday... and I "passed"! Hahah. No silver but good enough.
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Today was the first "Chinese thought and culture" lesson since we came back from Beijing. It was really nice to see the class again. According to Cheng Wei and Raymond, I had missed the most interesting part of the lecture this afternoon - Prof shared with the class the photos that he had taken during the trip! Damn, I was 20 minutes late for lesson all because of a stupid, really stupid, traffic jam at AYE. As though taking a cab down from camp (freaking 17 bucks!) and being 20 minutes late weren't bad enough, the taxi driver incessant speech almost drove me crazy! I thought my "I am pissed" expression is pretty easy to interpret. Apparently, some taxi drivers just dunch know how to read the expressions on their passengers' faces.. Argh!
Saturday, July 01, 2006
3 days of my 17-days (13 excluding weekends) In-Camp Training (ICT) a.k.a. RESERVIST has just gone by in a blink of an eye. So far so good. Nothing major happen yet. Except that I got scolded on the first day for not having my hair cut. Damn.Going back in that green No. 4 uniform feels weird and it brings back all the bad - and some good - memories. Same camp, same people, same food (which sucks! some things just won't change...) Training has been pretty slack - intro to this, intro to that, refresher lessons, breaks and more breaks=) Not what I would have expected though. Haha.. Just as I was hoping that the next 9 ICTs to come will be as slack, we were told that training will pick up slowly since it's the first ICT for most of us and future ICTs would be much "siong"... Damn. Oh, by the way, the Star Idol ("Ming Xing Ou Xiang") winner, Bryan Wong, was also back for ICT in my unit. He looks the same off-screen lor=p The only thing "special" about him is that he gets to keep his hair long (apparently, it is allowed for media personalities to keep their hair length as "maintenance of hairstyle is necessary in their profession" or something like that)! mailto:#@$%$$@@&(*^)^&%^$% How come life is so unfair huh? Anyway, not counting the weekends, I would have 10 more days of training, of which I have 4 half-day offs to attend lessons (gosh, readings not done yet. paper not researched yet. Die liao la). Considering that I have had a half-day off on my first day of ICT due to some meet-up session at MOE, I am paid for 13 days when I am back for 10 1/2 days... Hee.. My bargaining skills that I had picked up in Beijing is definitely put to good use here=)Speaking of the meet-up session at MOE, I was so "malu-ated" that I had hoped for a hole in the ground to bury my.. erm, stomach. I was seated beside these 2 girls from HCJC and we had to introduce ourselves and what-not. We chatted a little and the session began proper. The presenter started briefing us on our academic requirements. As the speaker paused between sentences, my stomach growled like mad. Not once but THRICE! I was sooo embarrassed that I pretended that it wasn't me and just kept looking forward. After the first-half of the session, I had to make a move first to go back home, get my stuff and report to camp. Just as I bade farewell to the 2 girls beside me, one of them said to me, "Better get something to eat hor." Wai lau eh. So malu-ating sia. Kena scolding for long hair. "Malu-ated" in front of strangers. Now I have one more to make it a TURKEY STRIKE.This week is "I'm sooo broke" week for me. Just this Wednesday alone, I had spent about 50 bucks on cab, and probably close to 100 bucks on cab this week alone! Here's where my hard-earned money go to:Mon - Cab from City Hall to Bishan for tuitionWed - Took cab from MOE (Buona Vista) back home (East) + home to camp + home to tampines for haircut + Tampines to Tanjong Pagar ~ $50 or moreThurs - Cab from home to camp (cos I woke up late!!!)Fri - Took cab from Wisma Atria back home after Germany vs Argentina match Now I know why giving tuition just doesn't make my bank account any richer=( Sigh~Monday's IPPT. Definitely don't look forward to it. Any MC lobang, anyone?
