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Saturday, January 27, 2007
I am a full-time student.
Ok, gotta start on my readings NOW! Mug MuG MUg!
Friday, January 26, 2007
Damn.
I was late for my 8am lesson again...
Sigh.
I think 3 alarm clocks aren't sufficient.
Gotta add another 1 to my collection.
Met up with my primary school friend, Peijun, today. Felt really good! Oh, she reminds me of Kenix Kwok (TVB actress).. Haha, forgot to mention to her.. It has been 10 years (!) since we last met when she came over to my secondary school for netball tournament. We had so much to catch up on each other... which schools we went to, pri sch friends we've met these past years, what we're doing now...
It's amazing that after sooo many years, she remembers the block I used to live in, my Chinese name and... my sister's name.
Interesting=)
We also found out that we have been in the same class for only ONE year (in Pri 5) but it felt like we've been in the same class for a couple of years! See how memory can fail us, especially after such a long time lapse. Hmm, now that makes me wonder how I got to know Guanlin... As much as I could recall, we weren't in the same class at all! Hmm.. How did we know each other huh?
*scratches head*
Peter 老师's Debut Album is out!
Must support!
Thursday, January 25, 2007
It has been a hell of a week. Really tired. Guilty at the same time cos I was falling asleep during developmental psych lecture and biological psych tutorial. I know I shouldn't have but damn, how could I stay awake when I only get to sleep at 5am and wake up at 7.30am for the past few days! Not to forget all the cabbing home, to school and to my student's place this week=(I can't take it anymore.The Westies will NEVER understand the Easties' pain of travelling. Fine...No more staying back in school at night. No more being manipulated like a puppet. No more clearing of all the remnants that have been left behind.I'm totally drained even if it's for a week. That's how long my motivation can last for now.Argh, 8am lecture tomorrow.. *Yawn*
Friday, January 19, 2007
Ok, I have a backlog of.. let me see, readings for developmental psychology - 3 chapters + tutorial, biological psychology - approx. 2 chapters (and I still haven't get the freaking textbook!) + tutorial(?), human relations - 2 weeks worth of readings & tutorial assignments, multivariable calculus - 1 chapter (worth of exercises.. maybe I'll do.. I must be diligent this semester) + tutorial(s). Biosemiotics? No choice, have to read it before every lesson=( Every single lesson is filled with distress of being called up to lead the discussion.. Please call me quick so that I can relax a little for the rest of the semester... How to finish ALL of these in 1 weekend? And what am I doing here when I should start working on something?.bleah.
Wednesday, January 17, 2007
I'm happy and somewhat relieved that I can breathe again.
First. I have just received a call from the tuition agency informing me that they have found a tutor for my Bishan student. After asking my friends, and them asking their friends, FINALLY, I get to stop torturing myself by continuing teaching this student. No, not because the student is naughty and I couldn't cope, but that it is extremely time-consuming for me. I have had to travel for 1.5hrs (either from sch or home) to Bishan, teach for 1.5hrs, travel for another(!) 1.5hrs back home. 4.5 hrs in total and that is just 1 lesson. Imagine I had to do that twice a week for the past semester. Gosh, I really can't imagine how I could have possibly done so. Amazing.
Second. After a gruelling 7-day mad rush to settle all the paperwork for the UC exchange application, from my aunties to bank to MOE to JC physics tutor to my writing (& biosemiotics) prof to friends who are also going to UC next semester, I have FINALLY submitted all my documents today! 2 of my friends going to Berkeley too aren't done with theirs yet, fortunately they have a one-day extension. Hope everything goes smoothly for them as well as for myself. PLEASE let me go to Berkeley *fingers crossed*Third. Met up with Ms Wong, my JC Physics tutor last evening to get the letter of recommendation from her=) We had dinner and talk about her workload in school, her love life, my classmates... It was really nice to meet up with her after our last gathering at Dan's place. We should do this more often. Catching up with one another's life.. We even plan to have supper one of these days with Eley and Huixin. (Sorry ah, guys staying in hall, we'll be meeting in the east/ northeast..) Anyway, it would be an early supper - before 10pm - cos you know la, she's afraid of putting on weight.. Haha.Ok, got to get back to my readings for biosemiotics seminar tmr. Dr. Don has been picking me for questions almost every lesson so far (3 lessons and I've been called up for every single lesson. sob!) ... Please don't call me tmr...
Tuesday, January 09, 2007
When the Biosemiotics Prof issued such a warning, it should not be taken lightly..."Grading Assessment:
Please be aware that this is a reading-intensive, discussion based, seminar-style class. Continuous Assessment thus constitutes the majority of your final grade. Therefore: If you are not comfortable with, or do not intend on, actively participating in Class Discussion both in-class daily as well as on IVLE weekly, you should consider withdrawing from this module now, or resign yourself to a grade absolutely no higher than B –."I so want to drop this module... but there are 2 reasons I can't. Damn.Firstly, I really like the content that we'll be going through in class cos there's a great deal of philosophical understanding on the (communicative) signs used in biology. Like how an insect knows it's in danger, what does a particular behavior of an organism means to another organism, and more importantly, how do they KNOW... Undoubtedly, it's by far the most challenging module I've taken, with the exception of my writing module - multidisciplinary perspectives of the 'mind' - which was taught by the SAME Prof! But I know this is going to be much demanding...Secondly, even if I want to sacrifice a great learning experience to save my CAP, I CAN'T drop the module cos I got it through the Pre-allocation Exercise and it's stated that we can't drop pre-allocated modules unless there're a timetable clashes with pre-allocated major/core modules.So, I'm basically stuck in the module... Which means I can't slack if I dun want a B-.. Which means I must speak up in class.. Which means.. Argh!! This is so so BAD...I was just printing out my notes for Multivariable Calculus and everything looks so foreign to me.. AHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAHAHHAHAHHA....I hope all these is a dream... Everything will be fine when I wake up... Or maybe it's just the FIRST DAY OF SCHOOL jitters...
Saturday, January 06, 2007
Yeah! SEP results are out.. and I'm going to University of California, Berkeley this Fall!!
I was looking through my picture folder in my phone and I totally forgot that I took pictures of my niece and nephew on New Year's Eve. 
Germaine & Lucas.Germaine is a cool (and I mean really cool) girl who's barely 2 years old.. Almost everyone played with her and made a fool of ourselves, but all she did was to stare blankly at us. I guess she must have been wondering at that moment: "what were all these adults doing? dun they have anything else better to do than to make funny faces at me..." Nevertheless, she eventually warmed up to us and she started smiling - 2 hours later..Lucas is an exact replica of what I looked like when I was around his age. Everybody said so. I think so too. Dunno if it's a good thing or a bad thing. Anyway, the only difference between me and him is that he is super duper talkative and his energy level remains at all time high. Never drops. Not at all like me. That day, he was initially very quiet. No one knows why and we thought it was strange. I went up to ask him and guess what he said. He said.."My two front teeth dropped so everything I say will have 's'..." （漏风） how cute, Lucas.
Friday, January 05, 2007
It's Round 2A of bidding and I have just gotten my 2nd module when school is starting in 3 days' time. Hate the CORS to the core. and Yes, the dept as well for barring Year 2s from bidding till Round 2B - 2 days before school starts. Well done.Anyway, I thought throwing 700-odd points for Intro to Japanese studies last semester was stupid enough. And I just did it again.My 2nd module, Human Relations, is worth... (drum rolls) a whopping 1501 points la. Sianz.Hope I will have sufficient points to bid for multivariable caclulus.. Nothing is left in my general account=(
Thursday, January 04, 2007
I have no idea where to start... Every single thing is whizzing past so quickly that I didn't have time to pause, take a breather, reflect... Now's the chance but I can't seem to grasp what I have to say... everything is just swirling in my mind, with bits and bits piling up in a frantic attempt at warped rationalisation...Year 2006 was filled with expectations, elation, disappointment and frustration. Most of the time, I was simply too tired to do anything about them. Living a life is so hard. Or probably because I have been living it the wrong way. I know there isn't a right or wrong. But sometimes we, me included become too fixated on getting definite answers in life - how we should do this? how we should do that? why we did this? who should do this? What if? Risks are always present and it depends on how we take on those risks bravely, work around them and solve the issue.I missed my friends so badly that I needed to tell them how much I care. I have things to share but there never seem to be an appropriate time for that.. 2007 will be a turning point as I am prepared to venture forbidden grounds... There are things that people don't know and they probably will not understand my actions because of that... I don't mind being misunderstood cos life is full of misunderstandings anyway. If we try to clear every single one of them and become fixated on getting a good impression, life is going to be dreadful and tiring. I'm sorry, that's not how I want my life to be.I have made my goals clear to those should know. I know it shouldn't be the case since I have made a commitment but sometimes there's just nothing much I can do to get back the drive and motivation that I had initially. The tiring sessions simply wore me out that it's pretty much irreparable. It's totally my fault. My rashness to serve. My overconfidence to think I can cope. My stupidity to say 'no' as an answer. It was my greatest worry all along and it didn't fail me after all. I've learning to say 'no' now. Not much of a choice when circumstances force me to. But it's all too late.It wasn't my intention to tell but I had to. Not because I wanted to prevent any misunderstandings but I had to be honest. At least with myself. Anyway, it's pretty daunting that I'm actually being more open with friends I am not exactly very close to than friends whom I'm confident in confiding in.
The little ironies in life.
Germaine & Lucas.