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Sunday, August 06, 2006
I've failed at my second attempt. Maybe it is just my wishful thinking that all this is getting somewhere. The reply was what kept my hopes afloat. It's not the content though. It's the fact that there is even a reply that meant a lot to me. Considering the hostility I had received before and the ignored messages, I am starting to feel that it's back to square one and all these aren't going to work out...
Sometimes, we desperately want to cling onto the hope for something to happen. Something that we have been secretly desiring but no one else knows about it. Something that would lead to a whole lot of repercussions. Something that would have to brave the social pressure. We just wish it will work out eventually. But at the same time, we do not hope for it to materialize for we are not strong enough to face the society. Self vs society again. It's a paradox. It's silly to hold on but it's human nature - it won't kill to fantasize. The angel and demon are bickering once again... Save me.
...I wish I knew how to quit...
