music is life
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Thursday, January 12, 2006
I remember someone asking me this: Do you live to eat or eat to live? Hmmm, i thought it was a little ridiculous. Come on, is life just about eating?
What do we all want to achieve in life? I have given some thought to it but they were just brief flashes of thought which doesn't solidify any concrete understanding of what i truly want in life. I wanted to be a doctor. A successful neurosurgeon, to be specific. A turn of events led me to deviate from that dream of mine. Sad. Last year when i've decided to change my faculty, i wanted to be a teacher, a psychologist (clinical/industrial-occupational/educational), a neuroscientist, yada yada. It just keeps changing. I even wanted to lead the life of a wanderer. Travelling & working around the world. Earning for my own living. But is it possible? Of course... it isn't. I've got an obligation of repayment.
As a matter of fact, we often only skim the surface. What we say we want are actually what we deem we should rightfully do. What others have been doing, be it successfully or not. What our parents want. What the social norms are. But, are these really what we want- To have a successful career, financial stability, an ideal family wif 2 kids and blissful retirement?
Is this life? Is it a game? Where there is a start & an end? Is this the ultimate purpose of life?
I'm afraid so. Is it right... or wrong? It's up to you.
Life is really life a game. A game of
snake & ladders.
Yes, that game. Every player make entirely different moves to get to the end. Every throw of the die presents a different path. Every game is different, even with the same players. We all lead different lives & make decisions that determine where we eventually end up. In fact, every single step we take has an impact on what will happen in the very next second. Consider stepping on dog poo. Does that 1 step makes a different to the rest of your day? Does that affect your mood & ur sleep & in turn, your state the next day too? Sort of a domino effect. Ok, it doesn't happen to you? Erm, well, fortunate you. Even deciding not to go for a run today cos you are tired has that kind of impact. Not running today might justify your future stoppages. "There's always tomorrow." "I'll make sure i do it the next day." It just makes you slacker. It's in fact, a vicious cycle.
Ok, i admit. I was talking about myself. I've never made it to run or even any form of exercise since the crippling marathon. Ok ok, i'll make sure i'll do it once it doesn't rain like mad K? Bet me on it.
Somewhere along the way, we regret certain decisions. But, every decision made is RIGHT. Or is it not? Well, we often say we regret our decisions. But think about it. We only regret our decisions after we make them. That's because our thoughts have changed over time. We are growing every minute, every second. Why the decision was made is because it is the right thing to do at that point of time. At that split second. If it is a wrong decision at that point, we wouldn't have made it, right? We made the decision because it seems right? Right. So, don't regret because there is nothing for you to regret. Every decision made is right at the moment of consideration. Sounds confusing? Ya, it's supposed to. If you see stars already, congrats, you are not mad.
In this game of life, as Ms Wong said, everything happens for a reason. For we are who we are, i say. It is so true yet so tough to explain. One thing leads to another and we accept what's in store for us. We let the story unfold. Our life has just been paved out before our very eyes. We won't know what's going to happen the next second but it definitely extends from the previous second. So naturally. It justdoesn't pop out of nowhere, trust me.
Then my train of thought was interrupted by an interestingly ignorant conversation between 2 secondary boys i think, who stood beside me in the train... damn it. Irritating.
*Well, Tall boy: taller than me. Short boy: Shorter than me. Period.*
Tall boy: When we exercise, our body releases amino acids.
Short boy: So are these amino acids good or bad for our body?
Tall boy: erm, (Changes topic straight away)...
Cute.
